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What I learned from my 365 days project?

I started Carbonara for Breakfast because I knew I had to escape restlessness. And worry. And impatience. I tend to follow every shiny object and become restless. I tend to worry about things I can't control. I am awfully impatient. 2015 sounded resless, impatient and worrying even before she was born. I bought some 25 markers over the period of 3 months - nice bright colors and mellow, pale dusky roses and vanillas. I had everything. How will I do this? 

Why will I do this? I will do it also because...because I need to get into coloring/painting things I am drawing. I had no idea if that was the road to rediscover the painting process (it wasn't). I created a blog in December, I intensely thought about things I should draw - made some lists (my life is a list), started seeing how those pretty Promarkers work and the 1st of January still hit me totally unprepared. I spent two hours doodling and coloring and wandering if... if this is it. Well, it was. You need to post it now. You promised yourself. DO IT! I pressed post. I posted it. It was there. 



I drew food because everybody else was posting food everywhere. Instagram, facebook, twitter... Well. I will draw food. Boom. What I ate. Or what I love to eat. Or what I need to eat.
Day after day I tried to create magic - and as with everything in life - some days you are more overwhelmed to create, some days you are less. I think one can see how much energy and love, and passion went in a drawing. Sometimes more, sometimes less. I could go through every drawing and conclude if I was in a bad mood. If I was in a good mood. If I hated myself for starting the project. Or if I celebrated my... persistency. 
 When I go thought it now, now after 365 drawing, the whole year flashes in front of my eyes. What I ate, when, what I drank and who did I drink it with and where...I can see where I traveled, how much love was shared and how many important people I know. Important for my heart, obviously. 
This is the list of the things I learned:
1/ This project you are doing only for yourself aka Haters gonna hate
2/ Every day you are getting better and better in something aka Why are you doing this at all? 
3/ I can change the drawing style whenever I want to aka Reinvent yourself when you get bored
4/ It is easier to hide behind a fake name
5/ Passion is obvious aka Either you're in or you're out.
6/ If you work hard nice people will come your way aka If you work hard nice people will come your way   


These drawings here are my favourite drawings from the first six months of project. 




Zmaj.



When my dad opens his wallet - there we are - photos of his family. I unlock my mobile phone with some funky password and I go to the gallery on my phone - there they are, my family, photos of them. In my wallet, I carry a poem. A part of a poem, to be precise. That poem is about ideals, about youth, about fight and about trust in one's road. 

Its author was a famous Serbian poet Jovan Jovanovic Zmaj. Zmaj was a physician, he was a journalist, influential character himself and a friend of influential people of the 19th century. Among others, friend of Nikola Tesla, famous scientist who translated Zmaj to English and publish a book of his work in USA. 

I did a mural on the wall of a poem. The name of the poem, the one from my wallet, is "Svetli grobovi" or "Grave and Its Glory" (one of English translations). This song always reminds me of the fact that no matter how hard times get, we need to go further, go out of our comfort zone, finish a battle after a battle and praise our success when it happens. This poem also reminds me of a friendship. It was written and recited for the first time on the wake of another Serbian poet, Djura Jaksic. 








When a wife of my friend died few years ago, I tried to find a translation of this poem into French. I couldn't. So I tried to explain him the meaning. He understood. He felt what the poet tried to say. That why this song needed to be read (from the wall) over and over again. It needs to remind us constantly of how precious life is. 


translation by Vedran Dronjic:
Have you been, my young brethren,
Have you ever been to a graveyard,
To a large graveyard?
– Well, we are always in a graveyard.
The earth we walk on is a graveyard;
The water we sail on is a graveyard;
Yards and gardens are graveyards;
Hills and valleys are graveyards,
Each foot
Grave next to grave.
The monument of all times is a graveyard;
The books we read are a graveyard;
The history book of all lands,
Of the olden emperors, kings,
And the obituary of higher images
Of the chosen ones, of martyrs,
From as far back as memory goes;
It’s all a graveyard –
But a cradle too.
There is no name and no number
For all the stars high above,
And even less can there be number and remembrance
For the graves in the dear earth!
Millions were swallowed by darkness,
The pitch darkness of many a millennium,
Nobody remembers them still,
But a candle always burns for some of them.
It is either a candle, or the name is bright,
Or the deeds are ever-burning,
So that they adorn with their rays
The rows of the endless cemetery.
These graves,
Old, new,
They shine
For every generation –
When minds get engrossed in the past
For them not to get lost in the darkness;
When you plunge into the holy ancient times,
Both holy and cursed ancient times,
For your thought not to get you off your way.
They are harbinger fires,
Which reach from distant eons
In that long procession –
Shining a light for one another
With a stream which flows forth,
Striving toward a single goal, –
And so the bright beams
And so the bright traces
Of a single spirit of various ages,
A spirit which has no grave.
– It merely chucks the bones into the grave,
Shakes off the ashes which impede it.
For a faster progress, higher flight
Toward an elevated future.
He who turns around to look
With a clear eye and sight
At these bright graves,
History books in a long succession,
He must hear how,
Through centuries, through mist,
Grandfather to grandson, father to son,
Warrior to warrior
Loudly cried:
‘Where I stopped – you will go!’
‘What I couldn’t – you will do!’
‘Where I couldn’t – you’ll arrive!’
‘Whatever we owe – you pay it off!’
These are the words, these are the voices,
Which adorn the past,
Which penetrate through the world of darkness
From those shining graves,
Binding with a thunderous roar
And with a divine force,
Binding centuries together
And binding man with man.
[…]

a mile wide...


 and an inch deep. thats what we can conclude after weekend spent in talking talking talking.

these flowers were waiting for me (with the funky postcard) after the long Monday. Its a nice thing  having friends who knows what will make you happy...


Dude



I have a friend who ran a marathon today. She finished it. Its amazing!!
Yesterday we made a massive walk (8 km)...direction... well, whatever... its Saturday and its lovely and Sam will join us.
Sam is a guy who is remo(r)tely related to Nicole Kidman, whose grandma was a chicken sexor (google it, and no, its not a power metal bend from Australia) and who is busking up on the Montmartre hill for the past few days (thats not how I met him). Btw, I don't think he knows how shark looks like (which makes him even more peculiar since he is from the place where they have a bunch of them) and he has a general problem with fauna (and flora). Strange dude.
But Annie finished 26.21875. In miles. Brava <3

mileta&respect

I was walking around Beaux Arts, rue Bonaparte and Latin quarter just to kill some time until my friend's exhibition (yes, in BA) was ready to be opened. And somehow I finished in front of the sign. Simple one. With lotzaaaa stickers. This one from above. But I stopped for the other reason. I saw written in red - Mileta. Mileta was my professor of drawing at some point in my life. Before university. Before architecture. Before serious things. Before realizing that life is not a serious thing. Bah. Before...you know what I mean.

Later he moved to Korea. The good one. Good Korea. With his wife. I don't remember her name, just that she was lovely. I met him only once in the street, during these, well, many years and I remember well that he told me some inspiring words. That he gave me that push, that I felt better and that I was aware that I can make more and be better in everything I am doing.

Us, the crew that was taking drawing classes in his atelier, just above one famous bar back home, have had a huge respect for that man. He is only a few years older, but we believed in advices he was giving. All of them. At least I did.

Now, why does my post has a silly title: Mileta&respect. There goes the story... One day he came into atelier, to give us the class in super cool T-shirt. We were all like - yeah, what a cool professor we are having. It was written RESPECT. Big, bold, sans serif (if I remember well) letters. RESPECT. We told him, hey Mileta, that shirt rocks! He, modest as he was, looked at the shirt and said in his specific, slow
voice: Oooooh, tnx, but I am a bit confused what does -respect- mean in this context... I should respect someone, or somebody should respect me, or that is respect in general...

He is an amazing artist. I went to his blog. Realized he is living in South Africa. My close friend, Dave is also living there now. That Mileta moved away from Korea. That I need to write him an e-mail to tell him he made my day once again!

And one thing is certain. I have no idea what the author of the shirt from above wanted to say. But, respect goes to Mileta. 

this one goes to somebody in...

 hotel near La Republique. that reminded me of Francesca.
and this also... amazing xylophone from Conor Oberst's concert on Sat. 

chez Janette


from right: Ben. Maisie. Danka. Me.

friendship.

"The cafe has it's sense only when inside is sitting my friend Pierre" J.P. Sarte

these guys reminded me of something. danka. bane. me. waiting for duca. 
although, most of the time is vice versa.

American breakfast


A perfect Sunday morning in Calabria with Annie&Carlo.

birthday

After a long, crazy party that went for a whole night this is a relic that was left for me. Huge blackboard with "happy birthday" written in all languages of the nations present at "my evening". Lovely! Tnx guys!

a robot



We spent morning running around taking photos for a site we are making. We finished it with some kind of brunch, sit down for a coffee/squashed juice and relax. Place is on Liman, nice designed super pricey café  called Organic something, not sure... sorry.
Then I found a perfect moment to take a photo of everything what defines this old friend of mine...

МИЛИЦИНА МАМА



...and her beautiful basilicum that blooms in small white flowers...I didn't know that basilicum has flowers at all, actually!
pony bike in the same color as her skirt. top that!


i njen divni bosiljak koji cveta u malim belim cvetićima... što recimo nisam znala!
+pony bike u boji suknje. top that!